Can I be OK without knowing who or what I am?

All of us live a thought created reality, but most of us don’t know it. Most of us just believe that reality exists independent of what we think, therefore we are fully immersed in our realities and without the minor suspicious that it is all thought created. If we would have been educated on how Thought works, we would know by now that thought creates all our experiences and all ideas we have about ourselves and about the World around us. In fact the separation between us and the World is also thought created, it doesn’t exist as such. If there is no separation, the one we create has to be illusory.

Thought acts like a mechanical process in time, accumulating and integrating concepts made of abstractions of what actually exists. If you start thinking about something, e.g. a rose, you can’t think all that a rose is, instead you start abstracting the rose into pieces, like smells, colors, textures, etc. And this we do with everything we see in the world that becomes part of what we will know.

Thought abstracts reality to constructs a thought version of it, representing as much as our brains allow. This means all we know are concepts, including of ourselves, my identity is also a thought made concept, and a very important one since all the other ones are centered in this. Although it looks simple, we shouldn’t underestimate the power of concepts and words, they do act in us very powerfully. A concept is normally called by a word of several words and once called, it has a representation associated with it, and that representation will be presented to you as what is happening.

But what does that has to do with who or what I am?

When I understood how thought works, I realized also all the deceptiveness associated with my thinking and who I thought I was weren’t more than thought made concepts integrated to create the experience of being Me. That triggered an exploration of trying to get to the source of who I am. But as time went by, I’ve come to see that the source of all things, including of myself, it’s all we’ve got and all we can use. If thought is all we’ve got and thought creates all sorts of things, I’m made up of whatever I think and since that is always changing, I would have to be constantly changing as well. That doesn’t make too much sense and instead of deciding to believe in some form thought have created for me, like the Oneness, or Pure Consciousness or even God, I decided that creation was an incoherent action, and would lead to deception every time I would try to define who or what I am.

Anything you add in front of I am will be a concept and not a real thing. If I can’t see the real things, then I can’t see or define the real me, period, done. That suggests if an absolute Truth would exist, thought can’t see its essence, so I have to accept that thought creates a relative reality, made of concepts, abstractions of what actually is.

Do we exist then as an independent human being? Maybe not or at least evidences point to the fact that is a made up perception, but we can experience the concept of being a human being and that is awesome, that on its own is an amazing journey.

I’m OK with not knowing who I am or what I am at this point, and I’m also OK with knowing who I am not. The experience I seem to have, allows an exploration to take place, full of feelings and emotions, animations, sounds, tastes, touches and images, plenty of images, all interconnected as a Unified Movement, not mine not yours, but Universal. The only thing me is, is a concept, when I don’t think about myself, Life still happens regardless, so that means is possible to have an experience without being claiming it by a concept, an identity.